thank you, thirty-two...

Dear Thirty-two,

A few minutes from now, you would be leaving... While some would like to hang on, I, on the other hand, will graciously let you go. It had been a wonderful year with you -- from the fights, frustrations, and fears to the laughter, love, and liquor.

We made promises and some we've never kept but we never walked out on each other. I know I drove you mad for slipping away with Twenty-three yet you were patient.

Despite of it all, you kept FAITH. You have shown me strength and courage during my lowest points and whispered wonderful thoughts when I feel that the world is castigating me. I will be forever grateful.

Thank you for showing me that LOVE is fueled by FAITH and never of FEAR – that, it is okay to let go because faith knows there is tomorrow... Ultimately, I will be fine and things will get better.



Giving you my last embrace,

Hya

Things that go Bump in the Night...

There are nights when things go bump and awaken you in fear. Is it a burglar, is it a ghost or is it just a dream? With a flick of the light switch, you would know whether you'd be scared or not. I wish it's that easy.... 

It is never easy when Uncertainty goes bump in the middle of the night, right between wakefulness and sleep - when you are one step closer to dream zone... 

Uncertainty comes in bearing questions that burn inside your head and decisions take two confirmations instead of one but you just can't let it go and it won't leave you in peace either...

Uncertainty takes you to Dante's hell-- to the seventh level called Limbo. Pitch black and cold, nothing to do but to sit and hug yourself as it drains your happiness and all good memories are sucked out until you feel empty... nothing...worthless...

The burning questions cast off a soft glow of fiery red. 

Do you see this "thing" as something serious?

Would it be long-term? 

What is the next step?

What are the risks and sacrifices?

Is this out of love or out of fear?

It is a trial by fire, they will burn you if your intentions are not true. Truth is a ruthless friend and can hurt you like a foe but it always rejoices in the right. 

      Courage, please come with your armor. I am ready now. Is Time on my side?